My last remaining lily bud bloomed, without getting eaten! In the afternoon I saw two fawns sleeping under a tree next to it. Now I know for sure who chomped my last lilies…I guess I don’t mind that much any more, since the fawns are so cute.
I also caught a Blue Jay sunning itself on my deck floor–just sitting there with its wings spread out. I ran to get my camera since I’ve never seen a Jay so close before, also worrying that it might be injured and asking myself what I’d do if it were. By the time I got my camera it was gone, so I guess it wasn’t injured at all.
Today my husband and I went to the doctor for another regular prenatal checkup. Between my pregnancy and mom’s cancer I feel like we all live at the doctor these days. I had a blood test for what’s called the Quad Screen (Down’s syndrome, Trisomy 18, neural tube defects). I really hope it comes back okay. People say pregnancy is a joyful time, but all these screening test are positively nerve-racking.
My mom has Chemo session #6 on Monday. Today in preparation for being out of commission for a while, she went to get her car serviced and took my dad for a haircut. I just hate going through this.
One of my supervisors at work hinted that I haven’t been working hard enough this year. It’s true. My mom got cancer, and I got married, (which involved a civil wedding, planning travel for a traditional wedding, canceling those plans after my mom’s cancer diagnosis, and rescheduling a much smaller wedding). I bought a house, moved, and finally got pregnant. And I work full time. I am surprised I’m still functioning. But I guess the nature of a job is that you are just your bottom line. You don’t have value as a human being–at least, that’s how I feel some days. Nobody cares too much what is going on in your life.
I hope life settles down soon, and that it settles somewhere good.